I *am* livin right.

So.. in the last few days in the midst of temper tantrums and some pretty horrid headaches I've managed to square a few things away.
Now that training is settled let's see if we can't get into the swing of things..

I am tempted to declare it the Year of Nikki.. seein as the last one went pretty well for me.. I am mulling it over.. if I do.. Fair warning.. I won't be much fun as far as putting others before me. It's about me and taking care of me.. and I'll try my best to do so without actually makin it a whole year.. but then again.. who knows.

So. Henceforth this is what has been declared:
I am going to New Orleans to see some dear loves with some dear loves. I will be staying in the French Quarter and dining at my favorite places with my favorite people. If it goes as planned we'll even bring back treats for a cherished few.

I am going to Atlanta to see some dear loves. Since I left there's been a big cycle of change and more than a few of my favorite people were let go.. I am blessed that my new boss adores me enough to not care where I work from so he's given his blessing to travel on my own time and report to my old office. I. Cannot. Wait. I've secured housing and social plans and a hair session with the Amazing Just Jack. Hell I might even see Lane, Bobbert, Jared, & Topher.. I love that they love me enough to confirm ahead of time their happiness at seeing me.
This visit puts to rest a few of my worries.. Seeing Jack will give me some breathing room while getting back to an even keel about my hair.. which to you isn't important..to me.. its essential.

Happy aside.. My hair has decided to stop falling out. All hail the amazing Biotin.. I jus take double the dose 5 days a week and say a lil prayer when I brush or wash that I dont end up with (more) clumps.. I actually think this lil pill of goodness is also the reason that I have nails growing.. I mean.. K'bird as my witness I can paint my nails now with the best of em.. hell on the 5 hour ordeal and poorly done polish change while sneakin in a pedi. I have arranged a vast assortment of high quality fun colors (ie quirky and Margaret annoying) that make me happy and hopefully coordinate with my toes some how some way.. even if its in my own head.
Right now I am rocking a soft coral that reminds me of Momma Rosa's color.. omg. I need to call her.
Anyway.. Brandon chose my toe color sorta.. its a louder coral and I am hoping to offset it one of these days with a nice tan. Tha's next on my to do list..

Back on task.. after I return from ATL (HEEEE) I'll have a brief wait to find out if I am booking a trip to Vegas or goin to Dallas to visit the loves (never yet met on some parts.. met a few times on other parts -- adored nonetheless always) for a nice lil work stoppage. I can't say my company hopes it happens.. but we all know the lovely Nikki thinks social time is AMAZING. So sign my @ss up.. huh?

If the stoppage ...stops.. lol... I'll be whisking off to Vegas to encounter a recently reaquired old friend. As a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure -- no matter what that trip will happen.. it's nice and a neutral place and I want to go.. hello.. tacky, garish, sparklie, loud, people watching, alcohol providing.. I'm in. It'll jus be delayed a tiny tad.. but wonderous nevertheless when it occurs.

I've spoken to a nice lady at the LA Department of Revenue.. and she's assisting me with finding out if the information I've been provided previously is correct.. she was lovely and I feel like I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel.. logic or no.

A second aside.. I cannot hold it against logic that some people who claim to use it are distastefully horrible. I'll continue to work on not holding it against logic and try to avoid locking it in a closet like a red headed step child with ugly orangeish freckles that stand out against his yellowish skin. Try. But he's so not cute.

Anyway.. I had a lovely weekend ... FABS Lunch on Friday followed by shopping and Buster AND Hissy time.. even if he didn't want to be touched.. a great family dinner with my favorites of favorites ... Baking and snugglin and lots of fun the rest of the weekend with amusing touches from outside my realm. Luckily there was little leftover headache from a nasty migraine Sunday nite on Monday morning and was able to finish my training as best (most) as I could.. and I finished first. Today I had an eye exam.. I go back in a week for a followup on some new brand of contacts that actually have me lovin life right now.. And then.. (drumrolll) I can get my new specs from Robert.. K'bird and I might have to make this a tradition of her helpin me pick out the most rockin pair..

The stars aligning? I don't know.
An effort to find peace in the fact that I am exactly where I want to be? Very much so.
I cannot tell you the huge sense of happiness when I stop at Snowball's.. when I open the door to the sunset that's oh, so different from Atlanta.. when I cross the bridge.. when I realize to see them is jus a matter of reaching out and calling or walking in. No productions. The very little bits of every day NORMAL life are such an amazing gift.
I was asked last nite by an inquisitive person if I ever regret anything. The most simple answer is no. I made my choices.. I thought them out carefully. I acted. I've reacted.. but I've always made sure that at the end of the nite the people I love know it.. the people who've crossed me know it.. the people who need me know I am there for them. I've been careless with my heart at times.. but at the same point in time I won't ever say 'I wish I'd tried'. I did. Try.

Failed horridly. Won successfully. Experienced a real. true. life.

Remember ... this is what you are livin for.. when you live so far in the 'what ifs' and 'whens' you miss the now.. and this *really* is all there is. Make the very best of it..

~Much