A country mouse.. just sitting here

I'm sitting here.. Exactly where I left.. and I am surprised to not find it lacking.

Everything is as I left it.. except different. I am so very blessed to be here. To see these people. To smile.. bright and big and want to cry inside.

See.. I didnt want to leave them. I just could and more than could I had to. My entire goal all along if you missed it was to get back home. And someone was stupid enough to say I could go home and if there's one thing you should know about me is I am never above allowing someone to be stupid when it gives me exactly what I want.

Here's the rub.. I wasn't ready to leave from here. New Orleans.. sure. I was pretty damn miserable and the Donnie situation wasnt ever going to get healthy. I was done. I'd sucked the marrow from that bone and we needed time apart.
Atlanta? Not so much. There's so much here that makes me happy. I've had a smile on my face the entire time... except now when I tear up thinking of leaving them.. leaving here.
I am -- have always been -- so very welcome here. These people.. .they are amazing. they have been my family while I was away from my family.. and to get to be with them.. near them while still full up on my own family? Is amazing.

Tammy told me I glow.. what she doesn't understand that being here and seeing them and knowing on Sunday I will be with my snowball and momma and if I want Hissy and Buster ... gives me utter peace. I will be/am sad to know that it's 309 and I am not free to flit and visit on the floor due to a training class. I am so very blessed to be here.. with these people..who didnt have to like me or be kind to me and yet... they took me in.. and made me a part of them.

There's been so many changes.. people are gone here. I was rumored to have left the company. So much loss. so much love. So very happy.

So.. I'm sitting here.. at home. I am over looking the park that I lived in for precisely two years. I'm home. This is a beautiful city-- if you've never been to Atlanta.. do come. Invite me.. or ask.. I'll tell you where some of the best local food and flavor is to be found. I am astounded by the colors.. even in the dreary days of rain I've brought with me. People are so friendly.. men wait for women to enter an elevator first.. they hold doors.. they step aside.. even for the fat chick.. like me. I'm so very blessed.. so very lucky.. so very much happy to be here.

I keep looking around me.. and I know I am a bit misty eyed.. it is SO very different than my real home.. but yet.. so very REAL to me.. it's like I never left.. when in fact it's been four months. This campus is beautiful.. the building is exceptional. It's unlike any business building I've worked in before. It's no cutting edge.. it's just got the same touch of polish that I find all of Atlanta has... and perhaps.. one day.. after enough visits that polish will rub off on this poor lil country mouse.. who once lived in this big bustling city. Perhaps.